Friday, October 12, 2007
-Failure - as a student, friend, significant other, relative, cousin, sister, daughter, actor, writer, as everything.
Not only in school, like failing a test, but failure as a person in the world. Not being able to survive; physically, mentally and emotionally. Not making it as a whatever I end up being.
- Being Forgotten - in general. With every detail forgotten about me, I feel less like a person. Like I am not even worth the little space of memory. I try really hard to remember things about people, so when people forget me, it hurts.
-Being Abandoned - mostly by my friends. I don't think that I would be able to stand it if I was thrown away by my friends. I really try to keep them happy or amused so that they'll keep me around.
- Not Belonging - around anywhere. Somethings I really have that feeling. Like I don't belong here. I want to hide in a corner and be alone. At least I don't feel AS awkward with myself than I do around others.
- Being a Bother - to everyone. Ever had that "everyone hates me" feeling? I feel that regularly. Like I irritate people and once I walk away, everyone is happy because I'm gone. I always feel like I'm irritating everyone...probably because I irritate myself.
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