Sunday, August 30, 2009

114. Can't Pretend

Monday, August 11, 2008
that I give a fuck anymore. We aren't together anymore and that is how it'll stay. You don't like Harry Potter and will never even be close to being my Remus. You don't do crazy things and aren't as strong as my Dragon Ash. I feel bad but at the same time, I just want to talk about Eric and Ash all the time because they make me feel things that I never felt with you. At Harry Potter night, Eric dressed up and that's why I hopelessly flirted with him: he liked something that I loved but you never understood. You never listened to the music I suggested, really, until Aaron came along and played it all for you. You didn't fake anything while we were together and I'm not going to anymore since we aren't.

113. Stevie Kalei (Mahekona)

Thursday, August 7, 2008
I think is what my name is in this play. I get to act with Jason Scott Lee and be 12 and all that good shit. I fucking think this shit is hilarious. I fucking Christian saved the day!!! But with, basically less than a week to go before showtime, I'm fucking FREAKING OUT, MAN. I just hope this show goes well and that we make it through.

112. Blankets and Sheets (7:45AM)

Thursday, August 7, 2008
is what got messed up today. Remus woke me up at 7:45 in the fucking morning; I swear, he is basically the only person who could wake me up that early without me getting mad. 7:45AM to around 11L20ush at my house and his smell may or may not still be only my blankets ans sheets...but it was nice laying with him. And he actually said "and you're lucky I love you..." <3 my werewolf and that charming bastard got me to take him inside, crawl on top of him, give him a little bit of a handjob and a little little bit of a blowjob. That charming bastard. I fucking love him. OH OH OH and the thing that made me happiest...I don't him that I MIGHT do the blowjob (because he said it was too soon for sex) if he kissed me, and he kissed me. That made me happy because that was what I wanted from him for a long time. My Remus, you know I love you; too too much...not like we care. :p Oh, and you know that lollipop is my happy song, babe.

111. Jana

Saturday, July 12, 2008
My big sister, best friend and lets face it, my love. I adore her; my sister who took care of me and protected me when no one else would. And the only person who I would do anything for. I love her. LOVE. L-O-V-E and miss her every day. She is the only person who I have thought of every single day since I first met her. She is the only person that I know FOR SURE that will be in my mind for the rest of all time.

110. < / 3

Saturday, July 12, 2008
Who knew that being taken off of a top 8 would make me so sad. I guess it is because it is Tomasu. And that means that I am not, something. I don't know, but this makes me really sad and now I feel bad and want to listen to emo. I feel unimportant now. Fuck.

109. Cobalt and Calcium

Thursday, July 10, 2008
~Where I will annoy you, with every waking breath, until you decide to wake up
~Now listen well, will you marry me? and are you will in the Suffering?
~And when the answer that you want is in the question that you state
~please don't tell my secrets, keep, them hidden

108. Special

Wednesday, July 9, 2008
Eric made me feel special today in two ways. Semona was going to the beach with his sister and instead of going and getting a nice piece of ass, he said, "well with her distracting my sister, I can be with you." =) and before/during/after the 1.5 hour handjob I gave him in the movies, he sorta held my hand. He also brought Germ-x for when we stole 3rd base. :p yes, we both got skin and he is pretty good with his hands. But, the thing that made me the happiest was when he said he worried and thought about me and when he kinda held my hand in the movies. It was sweet. <3 and how he would randomly put his arms around me. My Remus has been doing well in actually showing me that he gives a fuck.