87. To Ash

Tuesday, June 3, 2008
I love you; I know it may seem hard to believe right now, but I do love you. I would kill myself if I knew that it would make you happy. In fact, the only reason why I am still alive is because I love you too much to want to die anymore. I would give you my heart if only I had it myself but don't you dare ever forget or think for a second that I do not love you, because I would give you all of me. You are my dragon, my protector, my everything. You are the only and only. You are going to be my last kiss and my last reason to smile, my last everything. I will marry you some day. This, I know and I wish I could promise you but I know that if you really do die at 26, I will probably kill myself because there would be no reason left for me to live if my life would be without you. But I do know that I will be with you...and the end of all things. At least that, I can promise you for sure. Maybe you should drift from me. If it'd make you feel better, then that is the main thing. I would rather you hate me than me hurt you. I LOVE YOU, AND YOU ARE THE ONLY PERSON WHO I KNOW, I KNOW that I will love for the rest of eternity. Guarens. ♥