Wednesday, October 10, 2007
I want to be a punk rock star. I want to be an actress. I want to write, read, play, act, dance and just have fun in life. I want to be great; I want to be remembered. I am a dreamer. I wish for and want to dream; I want to be idealistic and creative and interesting.
I am a poser punk. I am a shitty actress. I write bad poetry, rarely read, play an unplugged electric bass, act in plays with two lines, dance by myself and sit alone, bored at home. I'm mediocre and easily forgotten. I am a non-believer, a realist in denial. I don't know how to dream. I am limited and unoriginal and boring.
Who I am is very different from what I want to be. I try to be an artist, but I'm too much of a cynic to believe in any creativity that could possibly be within me. I don't believe in myself, but worse, I have lost faith in others. Life has lost faith in me.
I can no longer dream of the glorious future. I don't have the energy to lie to myself anymore. Life is nothing but what we do before we die.
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